You hear people call one another "crazy" all the time and we all think nothing of it. It isn't until someone that you love dearly is diagnosed with a psychiatric condition that you begin to understand how that word can hurt.
Some people know that my mom has dealt with anxiety and depression over the years. She was even hospitalized once several years ago. At that time no real diagnosis was reached but her depression medications and anxiety meds were tweaked to alleviate her symptoms. It was hard for me to really know what was going on years ago. I was not living at home and my mom tried to keep her illness hidden. She probably did so to hide any embarrassment, shame and to keep her four children from worrying.
Fast forward to now....My dad leaves my mom to "deal with his issues." Then she finds out he has been cheating on her and lying about it for years. My dad says he is not coming home. Days later, my dad realizes he has made a mistake and wants to come home and try and save the marriage.
Through all of this, my mom is seeking help for herself and reaching out to friends. Doing all the things she thinks she should. But her illness and personality got the best of her. Sunday her brain went into "overload." She started off in a hyper state. Then she became confused and lost connection with the real world. She got herself lost and acted completely unlike herself. My dad ended up calling 911 and she was hospitalized.
The emotions of hearing my mom has been diagnosed with Bipolar disorder type 2 were overwhelming at first. I felt relief knowing there was a name to it and different treatment options. But hearing that the episode has been called a "psycotic break" is scary. I know my mom is beyond embarrassed of her actions and is afraid of what the future will be like. I am at a loss for what to really do besides pray and pray some more.
God, please hear my cry. I am asking for healing for a mind that you created. A mind that belongs to one who worships you. I don't know what the greater plan is, but I know you can make miracles happen. I just ask now that you give peace and strength to my mom-the most important woman in my life.
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Praying with your for your mom. I can't imagine what you're going through right now, but our God can.
I'm so sorry Lauren. I love you and am lifting your mom and your whole family up in prayer. God has blessed your family to have such a strong faithful daughter as yourself. Always know that we are always here for you all.
Thank you Ashley for your kind words and your prayers. I am happy and very thankful to report that my mom is home. She has found a new pscyhiatrist that she really likes and has started some new medications. She was afraid of losing her nanny job, but her boss loves her too much and is willing to keep her. My Dad and Mom are slowly starting over. God is good!
Lauren, I am so sorry. I can't imagine what your family (specifically your mama) is going through. I barely know you and definitely don't know your mama but please know that I am lifting you all up in prayer. Jesus is the healer of all healers and he can fix what is broken. Trust in Him in this difficult time. Lean on Him to be in control.
Mental illness is such a hard thing to deal with. But, I honestly think that having a diagnosis is a blessing in disguise! Now she can find support, feel reassured that she isn't "crazy", and find ways to cope with her illness. I will be praying for you guys! I have family members that just recently went through something similar and God has really healed everyone involved!
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